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So since I don't advertise my blogger very much, I'm hoping no one reads it lol.
I have this dillema. I have a few close friends but not really a BEST friend. I'm not looking for a BEST friend or anything because the friends I have now are great. Kim is pretty much my best friend in the whole wide world. The only thing is she's family, so it makes it weird talking to her about certain things. But lately i tell her absolutely everything. Ever since we moved into the same room together we have our little chats. We'll both lay down on my bed and talk about our day. We don't get to see each other much because of our schedule so these talks usually last for a really long time.

I have another dillema. I have this one friend whom I've become very close with in a very short period of time. She really makes me happy and brightens up my day. She always makes me feel loved and wanted. I really had the wrong impression of her at first. But carrying on with my dillema. She shares a lot of her feelings and secrets with me and I wish I could do the same in return. It honestly pains me not to tell her the real reasons I'm crying. Or how much I can relate to her situation. So should I risk telling her my big secret and hope she doesn't see me any different than the way she does know. Or always have this pain in my heart knowing we can never become closer friends becuase I can't tell her everything. in case by some chance you see this the secret isn't that bad..well it is. but it won't affect you directly so don't worry about that. Somebody tell me what to do. Right now isn't the time to tell you. i have a few good friends who are helping me through this. sadly one has given up on me already and I hope the other two don't give up on me either. But if this friendship is a real one, and we are friends till death do us part, lol, I want to tell you. Maybe when he's out of our lives for good...which secretly i hope that day never comes.

I was recently given an offer to go to MT. SAC with a good friend of mine. He says i need to do this for myself. To get away from HIM. I'm going to put serious thought and consideration into it. I don't want to leave Citrus. I see how hard it is on my friend, and I'm not nearly as strong as her. if she's having a hard time..i know i wouldn't survive. But im also afraid that if i don't go I may never see furby again. He's like a big brother to me now. I care for him a lot. He takes care of me too, and I know that when I do have to leave Citrus, going with furby would probably make the transition easier than anyone else would.